In A Toxic Situation? As/ Before You Walk Out, Please Read!!

It’s very unpleasant when we desire love from the people closest to us and not receive it. We go above and beyond just so they can notice good in us!

For years I seek comfort and affirmation from a certain person in my life. I remember nights when tears and music put me to bed. I couldn’t understand why, and over time, I became angry. Few years ago I understood that they needed inner-healing and I myself needed to heal and let the past go in order to move forward (whew, challenging I tell you!) if I can just do a side-bar and put God on display for a minute! I was so furious at this person that we couldn’t have a conversation without me having walls up and believing they thought nothing good about me. I burned with rage! Most of my memories with them were painful, and even though we were close family, I felt disconnected from them. All throughout my time around them, I prayed and prayed and cried some more. I wanted things to change; I wanted to feel other emotions apart from anger/ bitterness. I wanted to truly love them. I had to heal and be freed. God broke things down to me step by step and worked on things in stages.
Last year we got a breakthrough! We are still healing and I still have to bite my tongue at times, breathe, decide to just not respond or walk away when I’m triggered to keep the peace, but things are a whole lot better than they were. I can genuinely laugh around them and have so much compassion for them! God did that!!!
And I know better will become best.

Here’s what I’ve learned… Do not depend on or await anyone to realize who you are, love, and treat you with respect, appreciate you or approve of you. Reality is, some may never… here’s the thing, you have to know who you are, respect, appreciate, approve of yourself and know your value! Know that you are valuable! You were made with wonder and deep love. – Psalm 139:14. God marveled at you when his eyes first met you!
People will treat you how you allow yourself to be treated. If you know yourself and know love, you won’t allow for others to treat you otherwise or turn you into a doormat or punching bag. If you stand up for yourself and some choose to walk away, DON’T feel guilty, in fact, feel better because you’ve just freed yourself from emotional leeches!

I do root for peace, harmony, and non-division, but sometimes you have to close the door on a relationship for a while to heal enough, before returning or for that person to be healed.
I love the prayer Jesus prayed on the cross “Father, forgive them, for they do not know what they are doing” – Luke 23:33-34. Sometimes, it’s hard to pray this, but it’s selfless and produces change.

Here’s a challenge, though… pray inner healing and love for them as you walk away! Pray that God meets them wherever they are, and perform spiritual operation on them, cut away all that hinders them from becoming. That he opens their hearts and minds for transformation and be renewed.

Can we become a people that leave no man behind? If you’re freed and healed spiritually/mentally/ emotionally, reach out and touch the mentally/ emotionally challenged in your life…

I honestly believe that since we have God among us- nothing can be impossible if we just believe! God is moved by us genuinely loving one another, and when we love genuinely, we don’t give up easily on another. When I got saved, I got excited as I now have a privilege for my visions to come into fruition! I had/ have big dreams and hopes, and since He is a BIG God who makes things possible, I’m right where I needed to be, in the right company. And so, I laid my blueprints before him.
He says the prayers of a righteous person is powerful and effective, and if I don’t have something I should ask for it and so I ask and expect mind-blowing resulted.
(I live for the adrenaline rush of seeing or the thought of miracles, I do! 😆)

So Love, with God by our side we can accomplish anything we think up, omgosh this is so beautiful to think about!!! What are your desires for earth and people in your life/ circle/ workplace? I challenge you to bring your plans to God and watch him give you the strength and peace to carry it out.

Published by Stephanie

Hello, my name is Stephanie! It is my desire for souls to know Jesus personally; To be freed, uplifted, affirmed, and healed through our Savior. Know that you are loved so much! You have so much worth! You ’belong’ even if the world rejects and sees you as nothing! Despite what people around you, or even what your thoughts say about who you are, Jesus's truth is all that matters, and you are precious to him! Here is a bit of my story! I've been oppressed and ’held captive’ in my own mind for many years! I've struggled with depression for over 10 years. I had low self-esteem, not knowing my own worth. I chased after love, affirmation, attention, and a need to feel wanted- in relationships, to finding fulfillment in things. I didn't know how to love myself or how to receive love! I was sad most of the time to the point where I contemplated suicide twice. Deep inside, I felt a little girl full of joy, harmony, and peace who wanted freedom, and to live a fulfilled life; she was trapped inside. In late 2014 Jesus literally called out to me... and told me I would be okay. I committed my life to him in 2016. Since then, so much has happened! I've been finding shelter under his wings, and my mind is continually being renewed by his truth spoken to and about me. I have found and is still amazed by his perfect, unconditional love for me that follows me daily. I have found a secured relationship that attends to every area of my life. My journey started out rough, but it is BEAUTIFUL! It gets rocky and uncomfortable at times, but it is one filled with lessons, wonder, and crazy peace! It's apart of our walk. I am still healing (I view it as a life long process) some days I take a step forward only to take two backward but I now know to not depend on my strength even during healing as I am never alone. There are also many that I am unlearning and detoxing from my spirit that I grew up learning about. I have opened myself to allowing God to use me as I am, as an outlet to reach his precious ones. The purpose of my blog is to encourage a sincere and intentional relationship with Jesus! To help strengthen our faith and walk in him. To heal, uplift, and remind women of who God says we are. To walk in his identity- in hopes that you will know without a doubt that you matter much more than you can understand! I openly share my testimonies and personal experiences. I mean, it's a bit easier to speak and share from experiences. I firmly believe you will be blessed! Find yourself, find your path, and embark on this beautiful journey of life resting in God. Love, it's perfectly okay to be authentic- about where you are in every area of your life- in a world that forces us to mask our emotions and ’put the best forward, so people can ”see and think” we’ve got it all together.’ It's okay to NOT have it all together. Be true to yourself; this is an important step in being completely honest with our Lord.

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