An Imperfect Soul, Desperately Chasing After The Perfect Heart Of Jesus! The purpose of my blog is to encourage a sincere and intentional relationship with Jesus! To heal and remind women of who God says WE are! To walk boldly and confidently in our identity in him, and his unconditional love for us! You are enough! You are NEEDED!
Love, when you depend on God, when you’re trusting him, waiting on him, bad breaks will come, disappointments may come, discouragement, delay… you name it. But it doesn’t mean He is asleep on you or forgot about you. God WILL deliver what you’ve asked for or what he’s promised.
When you get tired, rest! Ask him for strength to keep standing and waiting and praying.
Ninety-nine percent of the time, it’s us who walk away or give up; He never stops working. God can never fail! It might take time, but ooh, when that time is complete & the gift finally arrives, it’s always worth it! Don’t give up during the bad breaks or delays; cry out to him or take a minute for yourself but don’t give up on Him. 😌
Do your best to stay hopeful and joyful as much as you can. Whenever you feel hopeless and discouraged, ask Him to meet you where you’re at and restore your hope. I promise you He will; He’s got you!
Hab 2:3 “This vision is for a future time. It describes the end, and it will be fulfilled. If it seems slow in coming, wait patiently, for it will surely take place. It will not be delayed.” Habakkuk 2:3 NLT
“Rejoice in our confident hope. Be patient in trouble, and keep on praying.” Romans 12:12 NLT
Psst, be careful of outside thoughts trying to break into your mind and later breaks your spirit. This will steal your joy and slowly put out your light. YOU ARE LIGHT! Protect your energy! Protect your gates, love!
Don’t give way to every thought that comes to mind.
Does it uplift you? Does it encourages leads you to make healthy adjustments and changes? Does it inspire you to grow, create, show love? Does it make your deepest inner (soul) smile?
Does it make you feel worthless, forgotten, empty, low, drained, depressed, condemned?
There’s always a choice to make.
My peace, comforter, strength, and favorite listener have been God the whole time. I mainly share my experience and testimonies here. I’ve vented, cried, prayed, and rested on God’s knees, and he’s helped and still is helping me.
You are and will never be forgotten. You are worth EVERYTHING in God’s sight! You are valuable, but you have to believe and accept this about yourself first. Joy is our core, it’s who we are, but we have to face fight thoughts that burdens us a soul. You have to make this choice to take back control and draw the line, set the boundaries. We have God on our side!
The mind is like a garden, what do you intend to plant in yours? 🌼🌺🌸🌻🌷🌹🌾🪴🎍
We won’t always have positive, uplifting thoughts it’s just the choice we make during these times and the patience we have and need. And if you make a wrong one, or wrong ones, be patient with yourself. We are all growing and trying to do the best we can at the moment.
We can’t allow doubt in while learning to trust God. God and doubt doesn’t and cannot go hand in hand, one will be forced to be eliminated.
We can’t always trust what we ‘feel’, sometimes our emotions aren’t the safest, depending on where we are spiritually/ mentally.
In that same token, it’s important to learn to trust our inner voice/ intuition/ discernment even if and when we don’t understand it! That’s where God mostly speaks to us. Get quiet and listen. We hear all the time to trust our ‘gut feeling/ intuition,’ but how do we know the difference between us speaking or God? The best way I can explain it is found in Heb 4:12 “For the word of God is alive and powerful. It is sharper than the sharpest two-edged sword, cutting between soul and spirit, between joint and marrow. It exposes our innermost thoughts and desires.” You hear it loud and clear, deep on the inside. It comes with peace, power, love and authority. It’s a gentle and calming voice.
The holy spirit lives within us, therefore we have to be open to listening inward, not only what we hear outward and from others. Bonus, you will experience peace, his amazing peace here.
If God says something, it surely will be done! It will come to pass. There might be some waiting, some longgggg waiting but whenever we get tired, feel forgotten, or discouraged along the way, we can ask for new strength and comfort, and he will grant these and more.
Go on that uncertain journey, keep walking when the storm comes- and it will come- but standstill, “be still and know that I am God.”- psalm 46: 10
What has God promised you? How long ago was it? Be reminded today love, that his word will not return to him without doing. Keep standing, waiting, cry if you need to dry your eyes, and slip back into your confident outfit.
Pray with me, love:
Lord, before I met you, doubt interfered with my life ALOT! I don’t mean to doubt anything you do because I believe wholeheartedly that you are the only Almighty God, you are the creator, you are alpha and omega, and there’s nothing you cannot do!
My experiences in life, however, caused my trust to be shattered, and even as I’m walking with you, they still affect me from time to time. But, your word said, “not by might nor by power but by my spirit, ” (Zechariah 4:6) so lord, I’m asking you to help me. Permeate all of me with all of you and let me learn consistently and steadfastly to think the way you do and grow in knowledge and understanding that I may grow in being more like you. I desire what you see and hope for me.
Work on me, Lord, none stop; I thank you so much for this! For being in my life and by my side. Help me to work on doubting, especially when I’m having faith in you, when I’m hoping for something, and learning to trust you.
I believe in you with every atom of my being. Increase my patience, father, as I continue on this ‘sometimes uncertain’ road. Let me not rush or become discouraged when I bump into something or get distracted. Or when I meet storms or rough seasons along the way.
Thank you for your protection and guidance even when it seems I’m alone, and you’re not with me; help me once again to remember that “you will never leave me, nor forsake me” (Deuteronomy 31:8) in Jesus’ name. Amen.
Can we who are on the outside looking in, try not to tell someone in distress to “calm down, relax, stop crying, don’t cry, be strong, stop playing the victim, it could be worse, it’s not that serious, other people have been through worst or are going through worst, or to look on the bright side.”
Instead of giving coping advice, can we be strong for them since they are in a weak state? Can we pray for them since ‘right now’ they seem hopeless? Can we comfort them instead of constantly trying to fix things? Be our brothers/ sisters keepers…
Everyone handles situations differently! This is true! We aren’t all the same. What affects me deeply may be water under the bridge for someone else and vice versa. .
No one knows precisely how a person feels or what thoughts they battle during distress. Being there, really being there for someone, means to listen or ask how we can help.
How would you want someone to respond or deal with you when going through difficult times? 😊
I suffered depression for over five years, cried myself to sleep many nights, felt sad, tired, and defeated most of the time. Some days it was so hard to get out of bed, go to work or just show up/ exist for the day. Not many understood my pain or would understand even if I explained as not everyone is open to the fact that mental illness is a thing. Also, you have to experience it to truly know what it’s like.
Introverts, as some of you know, enjoy being by themselves. It’s not that we don’t like the company of others. But during this time, I didn’t want to be around anyone- at all! I even contemplated suicide. Excitement wasn’t a thing or a word in my vocabulary! It’s almost like a heavy dark cloud followed me around all the time. My body/ shoulders were always tensed, and I viewed most of my emotions in a harmful and unhealthy way, even when they were healthy and okay as a being.
I struggled to find joy and peace. As a lover of nature, being outside helped me but to a small extent and a small amount of time.
I remember crying out to God many times, after forming a relationship with him- that he helped me created- that I was unhappy, drained, heavy, and exhausted 99 percent of the time. I wanted control of my mind back. I needed inner peace, joy, calm, etc. I was tired of being depressed and wanting to give up. While I was encouraging everyone else through writing (and my blog), praying for, and with everyone else, I was secretly drowning in tears and pain. Still, I depended on him to rescue me even when it seemed nothing was happening. 😢
Last year (as I did the year before) I asked Him for a mindblowing birthday gift (yes, I’m particular and open with him and what I desire, he’s literally the best friend and spiritual father I could ever ask for). It was the week of my birthday; while talking with someone about struggles, with anxiety and depression, I noticed that something was different. I no longer resonated with “depression” it was as if it no longer existed in my life. I realized then that I had been entirely healed of depression!!! You can imagine my emotion… I cried so hard sitting in the parking lot of my sister’s empty car. I was overwhelmed with many different emotions; shocked, joyful, surprised, and in awe.
My hope, joy, and peace were restored. Inner healing in other areas had begun.
God is so faithful and wants to help us more than we can imagine and understand. I called on him when I was in a challenging place. He heard and answered me. Today, though I still struggle with anxiety, I don’t worry because that too shall pass.
Whatever your struggles are, God can and will help you. Cry if you have to, vent when you feel like but don’t dismiss your emotions. They are apart of you! He will come to your rescue. It may take a while but don’t give up. Invite him in your present situations. He initiates a relationship with us, we need only to be open and receptive. Prayer changes things!
Don’t be ashamed about your struggles love, it might be what someone else is waiting to hear, and know that they aren’t alone.
Are you someone that worries you’re not doing enough, not good enough, or feel lazy if you’re not productive, wait for it- ALL THE TIME! You feel better about yourself when you’ve accomplished or when you are accomplishing tasks.
Firstly, you ARE enough, and your performance does not determine your existence. You can’t and shouldn’t have to “do” your way unto bring approved by others! Others shouldn’t have to accept or approve of you only when or due to what you can do. That isn’t love! You are created in love! God created you in love!! My dad always tells me that I was conceived in love!
Secondly, YOU ARE NOT LAZY!! We are all created with a purpose, and that purpose will be known to us all, and we will fulfill what we are made to do. But if God gives us this purpose, it means it is divine, and we have to wait and allow him to birth this purpose. “Not by might nor by power but by my spirit, “ says the Lord- Zech 4:6. “for it is God who works in you to will and to act in order to fulfill his good purpose.” Phil 2:13
You are being stirred, something is in you that has to come out, but you can’t force it out on your own. Yes, you might feel a bit uncomfortable, but pregnant women go through different trimesters, sicknesses, discomforts. Still, they can’t force the baby to be born before time, or else it will be premature and might require staying back in the hospital for intensive care. Babies are born naturally within the usual 9 month period. God will allow you to birth your purpose as well at the appropriate time, and things will flow naturally.
You can’t worry yourself into peace. You can’t be highly anxious about anything happening now. You can’t be hard on yourself for not being productive. Do what you can now… You can’t exhaust your mind, body, spirit/ soul and except to find peace. You have to relax! Rest and trust that God will direct your path. He will lead you into doing what he’s called you to do. You can’t hear his voice clearly in the loudness of your anxiety, but when you are calm, you’ll experience peace, and in harmony, you will be in expectation, you’ll be hopeful, and here, lives patience.
How can you be at ease or peace at a time like this, you wonder? There’s a saying, “man says show me, and ill trust you. God says, trust me, and ill show you”. Well, this is what you do love, you trust God, and he will show you. Make a firm decision to be at peace regardless of what your mind says or how you feel, the uncertainty that might surround you, and expect God to show up. This is you being hopeful and dependent upon God.
God won’t leave your willing soul hanging love. Wait on the lord, be of good courage, and he will strengthen your heart. Psalm 27:14 Be still and know that I am God. Psalm 46:10 I can do all things THROUGH CHRIST, who gives me strength. Phil 4:13 I can go on and on, but you get the point.
Do what you can for now until God inspires you to do what he wants…
One of the most significant heartbreaking issues we face today is wanting others to view life/ things the way we do or believe what we believe, and if they don’t, we separate ourselves from them. If they don’t accept what we accept or teach, we put them in a box and label them.
This is causing division among ourselves!
Maybe WE are the ones in the box, holding others hostage in our hearts… walking around heavy while they are free with clear consciences… walking around, loving, forgiving, accepting, healing, and growing.
We are given the greatest commandment, to LOVE each other!
Love comes with respect and acceptance of another even if they don’t walk, talk, or look like us.
Love should be our primary focus, if anything. It takes more energy to judge and criticize another soul.
This season of my life is more about inner healing, sincere love, and paying closer attention to acceptance. I don’t know what yours are, but everyone’s season is different. Listen to your inner voice. What is it telling you to do, change, work on, let go… Zoom in on yourself, love, quiet the outside voices and listen to your inner wisdom. It never steers you wrong. God’s spirit lives within us all, and he’s always talking to us; we need only listen intentionally🙂.
When God gives you a word or a promise, hold tightly to it. Write it down if you can! Sometimes these promises take some long waiting; sometimes, the wait is short, and in the waiting, we can get tired, emotions can and WILL get involved, and we might end up walking away.
But God can be trusted to keep his promise and not forget about us. As you wait, concentrate on doing your everyday task staying in his presence. Pick up a new hobby, work on your well-being, finish a project. Do all these with confidence, trust, and peace that God will do what he’s promised to do or give to you.
Majority of the time, I write from experience, which is why I’m always so excited to share!!! Unless I’m sharing a quote, and it’s one that I believe with my heart.
Waiting is HARD and sometimes painful y’all! It is, but God is with us through the waiting! So take a break and cry or vent if you must but get back on that horse and ride it out, loves. The reward is soooooo worth it! And more beautiful, we are drawn closer to God as our trust and faith, and confidence grows in him. I’m getting goosebumps 😆😃🤗
….when you go through rivers of difficulty, you will not drown… Isaiah 43:2
Be still and know that I am God…. 46:10
Rejoice in confident hope. Be patient in trouble and keep on praying. – Rom 12:12
I’m that girl who listens to her heart/ inner wisdom when everyone else thinks I’m crazy and says no! Maybe this is faith. I will walk paths others dread and would rather be careful. I will stick around when things get crazy, sometimes even draining me before walking away because I believe in changes. I’m also that girl who sometimes gets so overwhelmed and super exhausted, and instead of taking a break sometimes, I walk away emotionful. Then later learn from my mistakes. I vent, I cry, I do throw tantrums from time to time🙈, then run back to God and my position revived, refreshed, and ready again (Jesus is awesome, y’all)
I can be very random at times 🤪. I can be too trusting at times. I’m that girl who embraces being human and not hides my emotions from God because he can handle them and change what needs changing in me. I’ll never stop growing in his presence.
I’m also that girl who is judged even before one gets to know me—criticized after learning me. I was told I’d never have a good relationship. I’ll never be anything in life. I keep making bad choices after the other, and I’m worthless ☺️. I struggle a lot like everyone else, I just don’t hide it as I wear my emotions on my sleeve, and I’m okay with it, I love it!!! I will speak up. (crazy because I used to bottle my emotions, now I’m learning to express them tactfully) I crave authenticity and feel stifled/ unbalanced if I can’t be my true self.
I’m that beautifully imperfect girl!
I’m sharing this to encourage someone to be unapologetically YOU! Some will accept you, and some won’t… (Be open to being gentle with and forgiving towards them.) It’s okay, love, accept yourself for whoever you are—your annoying quirks, weaknesses, and strengths. You’ll never stop being beautiful, believe that!!! You are so worthy!!!!!!!!!!!!! 😊🤗🤗
Just as any human, I struggle at times to trust God. In fact, during childhood, my trust was broken. God promised me two years ago that he was going to restore my trust.
Some days we are good; other days, I’m honest with myself and him that I don’t fully trust him in certain areas. I find great peace telling him this as ‘he can take my honesty’ without getting emotional and responding from that place. Some days I say it and carry on with my day, not knowing what the outcome will be, but I expect good things from him. And maybe this is a form of trust. I have peace in telling him exactly how I feel, sugar coating nothing but sharing my raw emotions with my savior, and because he is Love itself, this is what is wrapped around me in my weakest states.
I struggle with anxiety. It used to be depression & anxiety, but he’s healed me from depression of over ten years, last year. With anxiety comes nervousness as I want to please and love him with all of me but the ideal so-called picture I paint and try to live up to, is hard!!! The thing is, I thought I should be perfect, and so I did overtime, trying to be. Whenever or should I make the wrong choice and mess up, I’d beat myself up for extended periods instead of forgiving myself and move forward in our relationship.
I’ve realized that it’s not that deep! The weight on my shoulders, the heavy burdens on my back that prevented me from sleeping well at night all because I was up late wondering if my life pleased him, is a thing of the past. I don’t always live up to the standards taught by men, and this would cause me to isolate myself from him because, in my mind, he’s not pleased with me.
But who told me that? The Bible says the righteous fall seven times, but they get up. I believe they get up because of the love they have for God and his spirit that leads and gives them the strength to get up, brush off and keep going- without the heaviness of guilt and shame. We are human, and life isn’t a destination but a beautiful journey—one with him.
I walk a personal path. It’s God and me; I don’t aim to be perfect; I expect to walk a prosperous path, not a perfect problem-free one, because I am His child. Anxiety gets the best of me some days, but it’s okay because I have already overcome it in the future, I’m just dealing with the process now. Some days I cry more than I smile. I feel defeated and hopeless. It does not mean I’m alone.
I’m in touch with my emotions and told God from the start, and I will be open and honest with him at all times.
I don’t know where ill be a few years from now, but I’m always excited about what is to come. I know it’s more incredible things.
When my soul is bare, I feel so much better than putting on a front that I’m always okay because I’m NOT! However, I know I will be because I depend wholly on God and his love. I FEEL a mess some days, but I’m still a beautiful masterpiece in his presence. I’m in love with my uncertain, most times turbulence-filled path, but it’s taking me somewhere. He is taking me somewhere.
My job is to believe and keep renewing my mind with his word. To think of things that uplift my spirit no matter the struggle and focus on what I know to be true!
“When you go through deep waters, I will be with you. When you go through rivers of difficulty, you will not drown. When you walk through the fire of oppression, you will not be burned up; the flames will not consume you.”…. ”you are precious to me. You are honored, and I love you.” -Isaiah 43:2 & 4
“Fix your thoughts on what is true, and honorable, and right, and pure, and lovely, and admirable. Think of things that are excellent and worthy of praise.” -Phil 4:8
